I bet you all think I’ve gone and disappeared again! But I’m still here, and I really mean to not disappear again!
For at least a month!
That’s one of my New Year’s resolutions. And I’m rather impressed with myself for having one of those, seeing as I’ve been Cynical Cynthia (not having believed in resolutions) for the last, I don’t know, hundred years.
And why not?
Because I think New Year’s resolutions are an escape hatch.
Say you get tired of doing something, like yoga and eating rabbit food. So you tell yourself, oh never mind, the NEW YEAR is coming up; I will resolve to get back into yoga and rabbit food then, promise! (Never mind it’s only April.)
I didn’t want to be part of all that procrastination and denial. (Like I don’t already have enough of that in my life, haha.) Really, I thought, it’s do or do not. There is no faffing about waiting for the right time.
But some time last month, while not doing yoga, I had an epiphany. (Which goes to show you don’t need to be a yogi nor feed on cotton balls to have epiphanies.)
My epiphany was that not believing in NYRs was doing duck all for my goals.
People have a tendency to set their goals aside and, I don’t know, play a video game, instead.
It’s so easy to get sidetracked, lose focus, fall by the wayside, eat a whole pint of chocolate ice cream in one sitting.
(If you’re one of those wack jobs who have earned a PhD, scaled Mount Everest twice, mastered five languages, invented a working time machine and published a hundred books by the time you’re 20 years old, go away. Just go away.)
I see now that NYRs, at least, remind us to refocus and get those bucket lists ticked off. It doesn’t matter if you keep getting sidetracked and have to keep renewing the same resolution every year. At least there’s a chance of succeeding one day.
(ADHD type people like me probably need a whole new strategy altogether, but I’m going to leave that problem for another time.)
By boycotting NYRs, I was basically allowing myself to be sidetracked for longer periods of time. I would enjoy the constant companionship of ennui while thinking, “I don’t need a new year to start doing that thing, I can just do it whenever, duh!”
But “whenever” comes rather infrequently, you’ll find.
Now, instead of thinking of NYRs as some dork invention, I’ve decided to think of them as a kind of parental discipline.
When you get to a certain age, you realise that parents are always right (the non-psycho ones, anyway). When they say DO YOUR HOMEWORK NOW, it is backed by all the wisdom of 14 billion years worth of universe. Meaning, disobey me and you will become a tramp, see if I care. (Actually, I do care, so go do your homework.)
Come 2016, I was determined to obey my figurative parents. My first resolution on the list was to be an early riser.
I’ve struggled my entire life to wake up early but have never quite succeeded. I have tried, honestly, about 3,482 times, despite being genetically predisposed to be an owl.
About 4 am to 12 pm would be my ideal sleeping time. But I want to be more in sync with the rest of the world (that is, pertaining to my familial and social circles).
So, on the first Monday of 2016, I made myself wake up at 7 am. I spent the whole day in a zombiefied state doing useful tasks I’d put off for years, such as opening mail that’s been sitting around since 2013 and filing them away neatly. It was a very successful day.
But my triumph wasn’t to last long. At 9 pm, my throat suddenly became quite sore.
At 10 pm, I started sneezing uncontrollably.
The next morning, I woke up with a bad cold and promptly went back to sleep. And that was the end of that resolution, may it rest in peace.
Well, there’s always next year.
4 thoughts on “Death of the New Year’s resolution”
Happy new year Sheylara :)
You need to ease yourself into it. Try waking up before 12pm for starters, then take it from there :p
Well, I’d consider that a win. You lasted an ENTIRE day!:)
@Lex: Happy New Year!!! Sorry about the late response. For some reason, sometimes WordPress forgets to send me notifications of comments here. :/
@Piers: Yeah, been there, done that. Never worked. :P
@RN1209: Woah, your name has changed from a 1 to a ! and nostalgic avatar. Also you’ve always been a very encouraging and supportive friend, whether or not you’re being cheeky, so thanks for the comment! Haha. :)