The good struggle while the evil laugh

One of my wildest fantasies is being a medieval princess living in a castle so big I could get lost in it, having handmaidens dress me in beautiful flowing gowns that accentuate my full, shapely breasts and curvy hips, after which I would frolick about in the royal gardens, pretending to ignore the declarations of love and sweet wooings of my dashing, gallant, chivalrous prince from a neighbouring kingdom, occasionally favouring him with a comely giggle or two.

Another of my wildest fantasies is crawling into a hole and dying.

But it seems that wild fantasies are not made to be realised, so here I am a struggling actress and sometimes blogger, who has bills to pay and people to impress and chores to do and still very much alive.

Which is well and good. It’s just that it gets a little tiresome at times. Especially when life keeps making demands of you. People make demands of you. And you give and give and give and nobody gives you anything back in return but you have to continue smiling and playing nice. And people make empty promises, shamelessly taking advantage of your trust and your kindness and your time.

Of course, it’s not always like that. There are truly good friends and loved ones. They’re always there to warm your heart when it gets too cold, knead your neck when the going gets tough, make you laugh when you feel like crying.

But friends and loved ones can’t shelter you 24/7 and pay your bills and fulfil your dreams. So out there you have to go each day. Put on your armour and fight the fight, continue to give and give and give, knowing that you can’t win the fight because you refuse to play the shameless, dirty game that everyone else is playing.

I think good people really suffer in the world.

Well, some call them good. Others call them gullible.

Does wanting to survive in this cold, cruel world mean that you have to be cold and cruel as well? Scheme and manipulate to get what you want, and then disappear from people’s lives after you’ve milked them for all they’re worth without giving them anything in return but empty promises?

It makes me scared. I don’t want to fight. I couldn’t win a battle which rules I don’t believe in.

It makes me wish I had been born evil.

12 thoughts on “The good struggle while the evil laugh

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    Hey Monster,

    I love you for being you! You’re not born evil and I hardly think you’ll ever be evil. Yes, the world is cold, hard and evil and we need people like you to make the world a warm and inviting place. And you know it as well as I know that one of the reasons that I’ve come so far in my life is because of you! If I didn’t have you……..I might might have ended it all long time ago! You know what I mean, right? And course, I agree with you that the evil laugh when the good struggle because I spent and am still spending my life struggling against the evil. I refused to turn evil and be like the rest of the world. But the struggle can be hard, freaking hard! Anyway, Monster, be of good courage, your time will come and you will triumph over the evil! Love ya heaps!

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    Those are the words of someone who refuses to play be the rules that were built into the system.

    You can’t change the rules by which the world plays. And you can’t play the game by your rules because nobody is going to take you seriously.

    Play the game, play by the rule and crush everyone who gets in your way. So you have a few people who will dislike you. That is part of being successful.

    The alternative is unbearable, as you can plainly see.

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    You mean that you weren’t born evil???

    But, seriously, you tend to worry too much dear. You have plenty of friends, even ones who demand that you update your blog more regularly!

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    You must have heard it all b4 but i’ll say it anyway…

    You dun have to be anything else but you. Talk your talk and walk your walk. Let the rest of the world do and think as it will. Why give a shit? What becomes of you when you can’t live your live being true to yourself?

    I for one do not see the world in black and white. There is no absolute good or ultimate evil. There is light in the darkest recesses and shadows on a cloudness afternoon. The path we take is never straight and narrow. Sometimes we walk in the light, sometimes we walk in the shade. But we keep on walking…

    “The path of the righteous (wo)man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men.

    Blessed is (s)he, who in the name of charity and good will, sheperds the weak through the valley of darkness for (s)he is truly his/her brother’s keeper and the finder of lost children.

    And I will strike down upon thee with great vengence and furious anger, those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers.

    And you will know that my name is the LORD, when I lay my vengence upon thee.”

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    That’s really deep, but you know what, you should not think about these depressing stuff — just think of happy thoughts (like peter pan). :D

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    I would say, be good AND be smart, both at the same time.
    I have a feeling you already know that though.

    “Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves.” – Jesus

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    “Let me tell you something you already know.
    The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows.
    It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.
    You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life.
    But it ain’t ’bout how hard you hit; it’s about how hard you can get hit,
    and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done.
    Now, if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth.
    But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you are because of him, or her, or anybody.
    Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that!”

    Taken from Rocky Balboa.

    Anyway, Fight on! If lose liao, dun worry, can insert token and continue :D

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