The senseless melancholy post

Actually, I really love this new layout.

I must thank the creator of this blog skin for his great work. It soothes me and makes me dream of all things pure and beautiful. It turns me into a narcissist, visiting my own blog 20 times a day.

The downside is that it also makes me quite melancholic. But that’s probably due to the rainy background on the header, which was my own doing.

But it could also be said that this creation was a result of my already melancholic mood. My moods feed on each other.

My favourite colours have always been white and blue and I feel happy when I see white and blue things.

This melancholy and happiness confuse me. I am both at once.

I feel happy for the things I have now, for the small blessings I’m given on a daily basis.

But I feel trapped.

I have fallen into an abandoned manhole and the world passes by above me. I look up and I see the sun replaced by the moon, replaced by the sun, replaced by the moon, in the endless, unrelenting cycle of time.

I can’t climb out without help. But nobody sees me.

I can’t cry out because my voice was lost in the fall.

I try everything I can. Nothing. I wait and I watch.

I watch people go past above me, each caught up in his own world of joys, sorrows, challenges, triumphs.

I feel lucky to be sheltered from the trials of life.

Over time, I make my own life in the manhole. I get comfortable. I grow lazy.

The world outside becomes a foreign, scary place.

People say that being alive is the greatest blessing.

I say it depends on where you are.

And who you are.

10 thoughts on “The senseless melancholy post

  1. Avatar

    That “stuck in a rut” feeling can be quite depressing, can’t it? No matter what you have, how much you have and how great you have it, that feeling never fails to let you know that the world is leaving you behind and it’s only a matter of time before the other foot joins the one already in the grave.

  2. Avatar

    Saw your Trichokare ad in the newspaper today, they edited and tweaked it, you are now a jigsaw puzzle with a missing piece at the hair.

    Page 6 of Home section of the Straits Times.

    Sky blue.

    Where’s the obligatory hand drawn flower at the bottom of the page?


  3. Avatar

    Aiya, don’t know how to encourage you leh….

    Ok, just take this for example: If you reluctant to see the sun, you won’t know that sun actually exist, right?

    So just look on the very bright side and cheer up always.

  4. Avatar

    Love the new look….but getting a little confuse with the new looks all the time! Anyway, I feel the same with you all the time….sometimes i wonder if i’m turning into my mum soon….

  5. Avatar

    Love this new look too.

    Whenever I felt stuck in a rut, I count my blessings.

    Whenever I felt that I should have taken a different path earlier in life, I appreciate the current path with it’s joys, experiences and current happiness (limited it may be) that I have.

  6. Avatar

    Hmm, mid term crisis (as opposed to mid life)…

    never mind, it is just one of “those” days..

    cheer up babe!

    Life will only gets better ;)

  7. Avatar

    See.. Told u that u’ll get tired of the fast speed connection at home… The world is a beautiful place with nice and new things to explore.

  8. Avatar

    It’s what you consider to be fun, that has a direct consequence on how far one goes.

    Trump uses money in the bank as a high score on his games of deal making.

    Bill does IT for fun.

    Some of the richest and most powerful do what they do because they derive intrinsic rewards from it.

    If staying static and being comfortable makes you sad, and challenging your limits bring you joy, it won’t be long before we see an amazing actress rise in the Singapore entertainment industry.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published.

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.