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Jun 06

I am my usual tardy self again, of course.

After being away from the blogging scene for so long (I also stopped reading blogs), it’s hard to jump back into it.

But I decided to “blog in” today because I’m going away on a short holiday in 7 hours’ time, and it feels wrong to just leave without a word. A stupid thing to feel since all the world is connected by the Internet, but it’s psychological.

On the acting front, half of me is happy and half of me is sad. It’s strange when you get mixed feelings. You’re confused, you don’t know what to feel, and you get a bit crazy.

I was offered a very nice role, and then I lost it because they couldn’t pay my rate.

On the same day, I got another role, a fun role which I really wanted.

But the happiness is tampered by sadness.

And, on the other hand, the sadness is neutralised by the happiness.

In mathematical terms, this means I should feel nothing.

But emotions can’t be calculated in mathematical terms, so my brain short-circuits from the confusion.

It’s annoying when too many things happen at once. You don’t get to enjoy a situation exclusively because other things demand your attention.

Right now, my full attention has been violently seized by a sick, sadistic video clip I just watched after following a friend’s link in a forum (which I was browsing while blogging).

People should be banned from making sick videos AND linking them.

Damn.

I shall attempt to distract myself from the evil grips of the video by MSN-ing everyone on my MSN contact list and singing the Elmo song very loudly (but taking care to turn off my microphone and webcam first).

Kidding. I don’t have a webcam.

I think I shall read a book.

Love, Sheylara
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15 Responses to “Confusion of emotion”

  1. pmg says:

    FREAK!! =P

    I kid… Good thing I didn’t follow that link. =P

    Have a good holiday…

    psssttt… introduce some of your hot actress friends to me? =P (I am shameless)

  2. HRH, 4th in line to the Throne, Patron of Culture & the Arts says:

    Citizens,

    The kingdom needs hot actress friends who are also shamless.

    By order.

    All hail demanding me.

  3. Mother says:

    Is the sick video regarding the stepping a cat to death one? :P

    Btw, enjoy yourselves!

  4. vandalin says:

    Do. Not. Sing. The. Elmo. Song. That one ranks no. 2 on my top mind-melting songs of all time

  5. Starlandliu says:

    Personally, I have no idea of what acting world is like…

    but it seems much more complex than I imagine…

  6. dav says:

    i love sadistic videos!! *grin*

  7. Qiaoyun says:

    pmg: You’re not even in Singapore, are you?

    HRH: The actress needs to get more jobs in order to meet more hot actress friends. :P

    Mother: Hey! How you know!

    Vandalin: What’s the first? :P

    Starlandliu: I expect every world is complex to whoever’s not in it.

    Dav: Ok, I send you. See whether you like it. :P

  8. vandalin says:

    The Teletubbies theme song. No, don’t even think about it. It triggers off all my mental and physical self-defense mechanism.

    The last 23 people that tried and survived are still undergoing physical therapy.

  9. Starlandliu says:

    Enjoy your holiday!

  10. Swordplay says:

    I so need your MSN so I can sing the Elmo song loudly right back at ya.

    :P

  11. Mother says:

    Yes…Mother knows her nu-er best…..muahahaha!

  12. MikeM says:

    Two girls, one cup??

  13. Mike M says:

    BTW, Two Girls, One Cup is disgusting and it will make you sick to watch it, so don’t.

    I don’t even know why I wrote that.

  14. Qiaoyun says:

    I saw that! Stupid friend told me about it! But it wasn’t that bad. Haha.

  15. Mike M says:

    OMG!! You saw it. Did you ever see the reaction videos? Dude, I laughed my ass off watching other people reactions

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